I want to live not just survive

Fucked up

I shoud be taking care of myself way more than I am, especially concerning nutrition.

Why? 

Because on March 11th I had my 2nd total hip replacement in just over 7 months and I seriously need the protein, vitamins and minerals and food in general for both the bones to heal and the flesh and skin to close up and heal…

But NOOOooo.

Constantly I’m seriously restricting my food intake, mostly not eating until 6-8pm because I’m honestly not hungry. I usually just have one small meal and then I nibble on low cal crackers, popcorn and pretzel sticks and l also ‘enjoy’ these fruit or veggie smoothies fo infants and children lol

ALL I can think about is that I MUST find a gym, obsessively work out, go to the pool and swim like a fish for hours and run like mad in the water an do lots of exercises also in the water and restrict even more, go on long fasts and lose at least 13 kilos in the next 2 months and 1 week!

This is so fucked up:(

How n earth is she acceptable on the runway??? She  almost skeletal, her legs are frightenly thin.
This is so wrong in so many ways and it’s very upsetting that models have become so emaciated and they’re admired by the peope in the room and by those who look at her pictures.

How n earth is she acceptable on the runway??? She  almost skeletal, her legs are frightenly thin.

This is so wrong in so many ways and it’s very upsetting that models have become so emaciated and they’re admired by the peope in the room and by those who look at her pictures.

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“There is so much pain.
And I don’t know how to not notice it.”
— Charlie, The Perks of Being a Wallflower  (via versteur)

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youreworththesacrifice:

bowariella:

yungswaqq:

F*ck reblogging half naked girls, this is beautiful

for all the people who think they wont find someone to love them, flaws and all…

I can never not reblog this.

Powerful and touching

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Beautiful

Beautiful

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“Travel. As much as you can. As far as you can. As long as you can. Life’s not meant to be lived in one place.”
— (via esperooo)

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shadow905100:

justthatonegirlnooneknows:

brilliances:

This is absolutely terrifying. Just look at it, it is so real and astonishing. You need to reblog this. I don’t care if you’re used to reblogging orange, teenage girls with vans on. I don’t care if you’re used to reblogging vintage or photography. This is real. You can even see the fury in his eyes. The tense muscles in between his fingers. The heavy breathing. reblog this. NOW.in all seriousness thoughM..my heart just stopped… ;~;Guys, you’ve got to reblog this. It’s reality and it needs to be brought to everyone’s attention.I lost a friend to this kind of harassment. I really don’t want to remind myself of everything that happened so I won’t say a word about it. All I will say is, he was one of my best friends and the kindest person I had ever known. The pain I went through after his death was indescribable. I want you all to know that it’s not easing knowing that someone you love had such thoughts that they didn’t deserve living anymore. I’m not good with words at all so please excuse this lousy paragraph I have attempted to write to move you. I am serious though. Don’t ignore this.i’m going to reblog forever.This kills me, please stop this.it seriously hurts to know people say thishow the fuck could you possibly send someone hate, or make rude comments when you know all to well that this could be the outcome, makes me sick. somebody please stop this from happening.

ALRIGHT STOP SCROLLING RIGHT NOW. REBLOG THIS. I DON’T CARE IF YOU ARE A HIPSTER, SUMMER, PHOTOGRAPHY, BOHO, SURF, WHATEVER BLOG. REBLOG THIS. 

One message can push someone over the edge. 

We humans are a disgrace to the world.

Dude.. this is just not cool….

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I wonder how many Kg’s I can lose in 2 weeks?

I wonder how many Kg’s I can lose in 2 weeks?

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all too well unfortunately:(

all too well unfortunately:(

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