I want to live not just survive

Actually now it’s every time I see my naked body:(I HATE taking showers because of this repulsive feeling I get when I see my body and especially when I wash myself and have to life up they flab on my torso:(
I desperately want to cut it all off, I don’t want it on my body, take away the layers on my abdomen and please take away the back boobage, it makes me feel disgusting, so disgusting, so ugly, so FAT! I hate it so so so much…

Actually now it’s every time I see my naked body:(
I HATE taking showers because of this repulsive feeling I get when I see my body and especially when I wash myself and have to life up they flab on my torso:(

I desperately want to cut it all off, I don’t want it on my body, take away the layers on my abdomen and please take away the back boobage, it makes me feel disgusting, so disgusting, so ugly, so FAT! I hate it so so so much…

(Source: my-depression-confessions, via not-an-average-teenager)

friskygrandma:

I!!!DONT!!!WANNA!!!CARE!!!ABOUT!!!MY!!!WEIGHT!!! BUT!!!I!!!DO!!!

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Reblog if you ever

fragilesuicides:

- made your self throw up
- starved
- took a razor to your skin
- felt like your not good enough
- thought about suicide
- attempted suicide
- burnt your self
- got bullied
- been called ugly/fat etc..
- or harmed your self in any way
- cried your self to sleep
- been abused
I will message every fucking single one of you.

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eliphunt:

recordsandcigarettes:

1-indsey:


The only known video footage of Anne Frank

I can’t think of any reason why someone would not reblog this. 
If this isn’t interesting/sad to you, then I don’t know what you like in life.

Can’t we hit 1,000,000 notes? This is such a rare shot, everyone should see it.

1 million wowza

eliphunt:

recordsandcigarettes:

1-indsey:

The only known video footage of Anne Frank

I can’t think of any reason why someone would not reblog this. 

If this isn’t interesting/sad to you, then I don’t know what you like in life.

Can’t we hit 1,000,000 notes? This is such a rare shot, everyone should see it.

1 million wowza

(Source: belledefleur, via thehoursbeforedawn)

xxpineappleprincess:

(People seriously need to do this.)

I 2nd, 3rd and 4th this important idea!

xxpineappleprincess:

(People seriously need to do this.)

I 2nd, 3rd and 4th this important idea!

I wonder what my family and friends would think if they knew that I obsessively collect pictures of emaciated women thinking ‘If they can do it then damn it, so can I’:(

oknope:

when i was younger, i used to draw the sun in the corner of the paper every time. 

image

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I’m going to lose at least 8 kilos before I go to the beach in SPAIN this summer! no if’s or but’s about it! I have to look good on the beach and right now I look the opposite and that’s just because of the flab on my torso but the hideous 4 large scars on my hips, I can’t do a thing about those but I can change the shape of my body

I’m going to lose at least 8 kilos before I go to the beach in SPAIN this summer! no if’s or but’s about it! I have to look good on the beach and right now I look the opposite and that’s just because of the flab on my torso but the hideous 4 large scars on my hips, I can’t do a thing about those but I can change the shape of my body

(Source: fouryouthepeople, via ugw88)

Fucked up

I shoud be taking care of myself way more than I am, especially concerning nutrition.

Why? 

Because on March 11th I had my 2nd total hip replacement in just over 7 months and I seriously need the protein, vitamins and minerals and food in general for both the bones to heal and the flesh and skin to close up and heal…

But NOOOooo.

Constantly I’m seriously restricting my food intake, mostly not eating until 6-8pm because I’m honestly not hungry. I usually just have one small meal and then I nibble on low cal crackers, popcorn and pretzel sticks and l also ‘enjoy’ these fruit or veggie smoothies fo infants and children lol

ALL I can think about is that I MUST find a gym, obsessively work out, go to the pool and swim like a fish for hours and run like mad in the water an do lots of exercises also in the water and restrict even more, go on long fasts and lose at least 13 kilos in the next 2 months and 1 week!

This is so fucked up:(

How n earth is she acceptable on the runway??? She  almost skeletal, her legs are frightenly thin.
This is so wrong in so many ways and it’s very upsetting that models have become so emaciated and they’re admired by the peope in the room and by those who look at her pictures.

How n earth is she acceptable on the runway??? She  almost skeletal, her legs are frightenly thin.

This is so wrong in so many ways and it’s very upsetting that models have become so emaciated and they’re admired by the peope in the room and by those who look at her pictures.

(Source: twigco, via cadaverose-deactivated20140502)